I’m writing this blog because honestly , and to be very straightforward from the get, I don’t know what the fuck is going on.
Now, I don’t mean on the day to day. As time passes, I’ve been reflecting on the past few years / past year. Each and every time I’ve done some crazy shit. I’m 29 now and all my life I have felt like I should have it ALL together by now.
That doesn’t mean I haven’t accomplished or experienced so much of life in the past few years. I definitely have. I’ve done everything to get my adrenaline going . I’ve gone skydiving, white water rafting, got electrocuted , cliff jumped, basically anything classified as “nuts”. I’ve moved across the country 3 times in the past 5 years. I’ve competed in body building competitions, I’ve opened my own business, I’ve had a baby. But now, now I am stuck. I could stop doing this “crazy shit” and go to being a normal, everyday routine person. But that doesn’t sound fun now does it? Life progresses in such a weird way. I’ve lived my life under high stress for so many years I don’t think I even know how to commit to a normal life. I think I’ve started this blog because through it all I’ve been fucking lonely. Most of my friendships are short term. Most of my experiences are as well. And I think many people feel lonely or lost and they just keep it inside for most of their lives. I think maybe if I understood that everyone has felt this way at some point, or feels this way now, maybe just maybe I’d feel not so lost. If I can help one person realize they are not absolutely bat shit – or maybe we are and that’s okay- I could help someone not feel the way I do.
Mid life crisis 